8 Responses to “Full Archive”

1. Ann says:

   Thursday,March 15,2012 at 3:49 am

   Thank you again cockdoll – I really am finding your comments comforting and even reassuring that what I am feeling is natural and part of the process. One of the things I have learned so far, is as you say, let the instruction wash over you first and then process it. And yes, it’s more the emotionally challenging aspects than the physical. I must admit that I have felt much better about some situations after having an open conversation with Master, as with most things in life – open communication is most definitely a great option.

   Thank you again cockdoll – I will most definitely be taking a voyeuristic peek into your world, I have picked up so much already – it’s also really comforting to know that it’s ok to want this.

   Ann

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   • cockdoll says:

     Thursday,March 15,2012 at 2:29 pm

     Ann,
     Well thank you, I am touched by such kind words. Life is about experiences and communication, at least it is for me. I look forward to all you wish to share and I do hope that whatever I may write brings something positive to your day. I am here if you have any further questions.
     Have a happy day.
     ~cockdoll

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2. Ann says:

   Monday,March 12,2012 at 7:05 am

   Hi cockdoll – I have stumbled upon your website, and have found it fascinating and very enlightening. I am a sub in training and have experienced many ‘firsts’ over the past few weeks, which to my amazement, I’m taking to like duck to water. I have just been instructed by Master to create such a blog as an indication of my submission, love and loyalty to him. Phew…how do I start such a thing, do you have any rules of thought, guidance, that you could offer?

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   • cockdoll says:

     Monday,March 12,2012 at 9:23 am

     Ann,
     Well goodness, congratulations on so many “firsts”. How very exciting for you and your Master. When it comes to writing in a journal I really only follow one rule: be honest. It can be challenging to openly confess a feeling, thought, action even if the journal is private but when it is public that can be extra tricky. A journal for me is a safe haven, a place where I express myself without editing what I feel and although I struggle with that I do work diligently in keeping my journal authentic. I think it is important to note though that one can be honest without being spiteful and realizing that what you say might create pain for someone and being able to accept that. I have said things in my journal that have prickled others and although my intent was not to do so I still did and I had to learn how to work through those emotions.

     As to starting, go from the beginning. Write what first comes from your mind and the rest will automatically follow. I wish you all the best on your literary journey. Perhaps one day you will share it for all and I can venture over to your virtual world.

     All the best,
     ~cockdoll

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     • Ann says:

       Tuesday,March 13,2012 at 4:31 am

       Thank you cockdoll – I appreciate your reply and your comments. It is absolutely exciting, and daunting – I have permission to use some of my earlier declarations to Master to post on my blog so it seems I’m on my way. It’s confusing to know what to actually write, but as you say, being honest is a good start and focusing on how I’m feeling as well. For the moment, my blog will be for Master only, although He may decide to share this at a later stage – will let you know if this is the case. Although I have managed to upset one friend already – this side of me is private with only a few people knowing a little. This friend as already expressed concern with what I am choosing. When I told him about my blog, he made it clear that he doesn’t want to share this journey with me. That’s a tough thing, his choice though.

       On another subject if you don’t mind – I’m curious as to how you manage instructions that you have conflicting thoughts/opinions on?

       Thank you again for your guidance.
       Ann
     • cockdoll says:

       Tuesday,March 13,2012 at 8:30 pm

       Ann,
       Having a journal just between you and your master is what I generally recommend, at least in the beginning but I do appreciate your willingness to share it with me should that time come.

       Instructions can be rather challenging, emotionally I find more than physically. In the past I found my words were unkind when I felt conflicted; however, with time and communication with Master I have learned to pause before reacting. Often it was not so much the act itself but the surprise of it that overwhelmed me and once I allowed the instructions to wash over me I was able to better process them and either ask to discuss said instructions so I had a better understanding of the meaning behind them or just “get on with it”. Master and I are two very different people with extreme opinions and having been born and raised in different countries, on different continents and speaking different languages (although Master does speak English beautifully it was not his first language) has added to our, shall I describe them as heated debates. At the end of the day I am here to do as I am told because I want this life and there will be times when I have to suck it up and accept what is being told of me. If it really goes against my very moral fibre then we will engage in a conversation otherwise what does not break me only makes me stronger.

       You are more than welcome to peek into my world and ask as many questions as you wish Ann. I will try my best to provide you with my own experiences as sometimes just knowing you are not alone is all you need.

       Wishing you and your master the best,
       ~cockdoll
3. Donna C. says:

   Monday,September 19,2011 at 10:37 pm

   I really can’t believe that I have been reading your entries for almost 2 years. Sometimes I read them to get ideas on fantasies, which I need to write 2 a week for now. Sometimes I have read just to get ideas of my own and possibly open my mind more. Then the other day as I was driving alone and trying to think of another fantasy I started to think about all I have learned from you during all of the times I have read your posts. I have become a better slave because I have seen how it is supposed to be. I know we all have different “ways” but the general idea is always the same. I have written with questions a few times in the beginning of my relationship with Master, you have always been kind and straight foward with your answers. Thank you, and a thank you to your Master also for having you share yourselves with all who visit your site.

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   • cockdoll says:

     Sunday,September 25,2011 at 11:19 pm

     Donna C,
     Goodness, my first words are thank you. Thank you for taking time to read my ramblings; for following me for two long years. I hope, should you continue to read, that you will still enjoy all I have experienced and all that goes through my head. Your words are lovely Donna.
     I wish you a wonderful journey full of surprises and love.

     ~His cockdoll

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