I originally started this task on October 10, 2008 and after much deliberation I have finally completed this lengthy list. I confess, I did not follow through explicitly to Master’s instructions for he informed me I was to record each privilege by ranking. After great contemplation I realised that each privilege was significant in its own way and therefore I was unable to rank any of them in any priority. I believe common sense can dictate that breathing is on the top of the list but I do not believe I need to reinforce the importance of oxygen. With that said I shall share my extensive list, starting with my initial beginning to this rather challenging task.
When everything is a privilege how is it possible for me to make such a list? I have spoken with Master regarding this request of his and I explained to him that I feel repetitive while writing because I feel as though he already knows what are my privileges and since absolutely every action I make is a gift and not a right how can I possibly not record every move I make? Master, in his true fashion merely smiled and stated he wanted me to use this exercise as a reminder so that I do not forget my place and understand that at no time am I not under his control.
I am not so certain if I captured the lesson I was to acquire but I was reminded that I am property. Loved and cherished property but nevertheless, owned real estate.
100 Privileges.
1. Having a voice.
2. Expressing my opinion.
3. Expressing my love for Master in physical manners.
4. Spending time with family
5. Spending time with friends
6. Dedicating time and energy into work.
7. Voting.
8. Eating poached eggs.
9. Spending time with myself without having to telephone Master at specific times.
10. Wearing pants.
11. Going to the washroom.
12. Eating.
13. Sleeping.
14. Breathing.
15. Meeting new people.
16. Having chocolate.
17. Watching videos on youtube.
18. Working out.
19. Planting in a garden.
20. Watching movies.
21. Being permitted to sleep on the bed.
22. Taking naps.
23. Spending hours at the book store.
24. Staying up late to read two online journals.
25. Receiving permission to masturbate.
26. Being granted orgasms.
27. Being allowed to ask Master for ’snaps’.
28. Drinking ice water and chewing on the ice cubes.
39. Styling my hair straight, or curly or up in a pony.
40. Being permitted to wear perfume I like.
41. Not having to write in my journal every night.
42. Still being permitted to remain quiet from time to time when sharing my feelings is challenging.
43. Being excused from reading every business book Master enjoys.
44. Being permitted to wear make up I like and learning to slowly delve into the world of painted eyes and cheek bones.
45. Being permitted to wear clothes that cover my body – not having to be excessively exposed.
46. Being allowed to be naked while sleeping.
47. Wearing shackles on my wrists and ankles as I sleep.
48. Listening to pop music (Master hates it).
49. Playing in leaves and splashing in mud puddles.
50. Reading children’s stories.
51. To telephone Master whenever I want.
52. Being permitted to play with dolly.
53. Having insecurities.
54. Doubting myself.
55. Being permitted to still question my place in Master’s life.
56. Watching porn.
57. Reading porn.
58. For being imperfect.
59. For discussing with Master my career and hopes.
60. Being permitted to strive to be the best and being accepted when I am not.
61. For debating.
62. For not taking my cell phone with me everywhere.
63. For asking for blankets to keep me warm.
64. Not sleeping in a cage every night.
65. Asking to sleep in a cage.
66. Being allowed to wear masks which allow me to explore what I call my dark side.
67. Having a dark side.
68. Being afraid of myself.
69. Watching movies in bed.
70. Not always being communicative.
71. For rambling.
72. Expressing my desires vicariously through another dolly.
73. Maintaining a shyness even though I should be past that feeling by now.
74. Wearing the colour pink.
75. For sometimes being permitted to be stuffed with toys of my selection while at work.
76. For sometimes _not_ being stuffed while at work.
77. Being permitted to purchase toys as a gift for Master.
78. Talking to like minded individuals and not show my submissive nature.
79. Being dominant at work.
80. Sleeping under blankets, numerous ones.
81. Being permitted to warm my sheets with mt fresh air.
83. Getting grumpy when I do not “get my own way”.
84. Being forgiven.
85. To take pictures.
86. Drinking tea in a tea cup.
87. Having number 9 as my lucky number.
88. Wanting to act sadistically with a girl.
89. Projecting feelings onto others and believing they are true of others and not myself.
90. Lying to myself about what I desire.
91. Jumping in mud puddles even though it most often causes me to fall ill.
92. Asking to be pushed.
93. Asking for anything.
94. To strive for the best career imaginable.
95. Daydreaming about my passions, desires and lusts.
96. Hiding behind masks of civility.
97. Behaving badly because I feel challenged, torn inside and not being punished but loved instead.
98. Making mistakes.
99. Eating jell-o.
100. Having Master in my life.
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