"Remember, tomorrow is your last day, once July takes place you will no longer be permitted to stuff your two holes nor will you be permitted to touch yourself, cum, without my permission."

Halfway through May, Master had told me that June was going to be "24/7 stuffed hole month". When Master first brought this to my attention, i in my true form, started to panic. How on earth could i possibly be stuffed in either my asscunt or cunt 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. How could i possibly go about my daily duties, without permission to wear panties, all while being stuffed? Instead of reacting, which has been a pattern for far too long, i took a moment to inhale then exhale, listening to the beat of my heart, focusing on the possibility of completing this task for my Master, rather than the fear of failing. After much thought i asked Master if He believed it would be possible to be granted panties during my month to help keep any device nicely stuffed. i believe Master said yes because i had asked without stating "i can not" and i found a slight peace knowing i would have a safeguard. As June approached i became apprehensive, fearful i would be in pain or simply unable to focus while i was filled tightly, still i did not balk at this new training development, rather i embraced it, accepting my challenge with pride.

June arrived quickly and the first two weeks of stuffing was difficult. i found myself over sensitive with regards to my cunt and asscunt and i moved slowly, clenching all my muscles with every step. As the third week approached, i began to understand the meaning behind my training and i took solace in the toys that entered my orifice, reminding me of the ownership my Master has over my being. Now, as my last day is here i feel a sense of grief, knowing tomorrow i will be empty, void of that connection with my Master. Along with my grief, i feel great anticipation for what will take place come tomorrow and for the duration of the month of July.

As of July 01, 2008 i am no longer permitted to have either my asscunt or cunt stuffed and i am not permitted to touch my cunt or cum without having asked and been given permission to do so. In combination of what i am not permitted to do, i will be expected to use a toy, referred to as "throat cunt training dildo" which was purchased explicitly to train my throatcunt to accept Masters cock without causing me to vomit along with training my throatcunt to deep throat. i, like many girls, have a very sensitive gag reflex and being able to deep throat has always been a goal of mine.

i have participated in routine throatcunt training many times before; however, this time Master has very specific goals for me to achieve and i gratefully accept my new training schedule. i am though nervous about having to ask permission to cum and quite possibly being denied my release. i am puzzled as to where my apprehension comes from as i always believe i must ask permission prior to any activity i wish to participate in, this though, embarrasses me.

i know i will strive to perfect all tasks that come my way and that all challenges are merely successes i have yet to reach. Still, i wish i knew what tomorrow holds. Sometimes i wish i had a little crystal ball.

~His slave

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