i am not a typical girl who remembers dates or special anniversaries; however, i remember moments. Moments that have captured my heart and still touch me after years have passed.

i remember the first time i truly felt Masters love. Interestingly enough it was not when He first told me He loved me but rather it was the first time i told Him. W/we had been speaking for over an hour and during that conversation He told me He loved me and i had responded in the manner i had for over a month now, "and i adore You Master". There was a second of a pause when i heard a question that had never escaped Masters lips before.

Master: "I know you adore me. Do you love me?"
Long pause.
me: "i adore You Master, You know that."
Master: "Yes. I know you adore me baby girl, but do you love me?"
Another long pause. my heart was pounding deep in my chest and i felt a sensation of fear and happiness. i was scared but i wanted Him to know just how much He meant to me.
me: "Yes. Master."
Long pause.
me: "i love You Master. Yes. i love You".

In that moment Master entered my entire being. i felt Him blanket me and there has not been a moment since that exchange where i have not felt Him inside me. And with each new day i feel His presence ever more and today was no exception.

Today i felt Master on a level i have never experienced before. i did not feel tight restraints; i did not feel a beautifully suffocating collar; i did not feel His whisper directing me. Today i felt Him - imprinted on my soul and deeply nestled in my heart. my responses and reactions to moments during the day came without thought but on reflex of freedom of a slave and freedom of an owned girl. Today i was liberated without embarrassment and or shame. Today He was in me, guiding me so effortlessly and yet gracefully.

i often think about what Master would say or do or think. Today i merely "did" and in those moments of "doing" He was in me. Holding me and loving me. This is where Master has been taking me. This is truly the beginning of O/our journey.

Today i fell in love with Master all over again.

~His loving slave

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