Another big day for a Master and His slave.

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Another big day for a Master and His slave.

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i would like to begin this entry with the acknowledgment that as of April 25, i have been recording mine and Master's journey for one whole year. An entire year has passed and in those 365 days i have explored and accepted who i am and the wonderful relationship i have in ways i never deemed possible. my very first entry, "His Love is my Freedom" was the beginning of a monumental step towards my slavery and i am forever grateful for Masters love and continual lessons.

Today was one of those very special days of growth - a day where my lessons truly came from within my slave soul -from a place i tend to keep hidden. Many people would expect that after three years of being together, i would feel completely confident in sharing my desires; however, there are still thoughts even i feel are too dark to share. Fortunately though, today was a day when i embraced confidence in both myself and the relationship i share with Master and i opened up my dirty little mind and confessed three very big desires i have been denying, (both to myself and to Master).

(i wish to interject though for a moment and state that i had been denying three desires but Master was very aware of them as Master is very in tune with His slave and what i am feeling.)

The first desire i shared with Master is that i crave to be a toy for Master and His mates. i have fantasized for a very long time about being a "gift" from Master to one of His friends and allowing His friend(s) to use me in any which way He wanted to. The idea of being the absolute best little fuck toy for another person; knowing i must be the most amazing and pleasing slave brings a form of pleasure i can not describe. Just knowing i was making Master proud and that Master's friends would see what Master receives everyday sends tingles up and down this slaves' body.

The second desire i shared with Master is that i wish for Master to allow the "toy" to use me in the same way i will use her. i confessed to Master that this was a challenging desire to confess to because i have been fearful of my own desires for pain and i know i will inflict pain onto this "toy" and therefore she will inflict pain onto me.

The third desire is a desire i am unwilling to confess as i am to ashamed to speak of it with everyone for i am not fully confident with myself on this topic. This third desire though is one Master and i have been speaking about for a long long time and one that i continued to deny, violently so, until today. i could tell once i confessed my lust that Master was extremely happy and that made me beam with pride.

Today was a day of admittance. i confided with Master on numerous feelings and i exposed myself greater than i ever have before. my emotional nakedness was liberating though and i feel as though a huge slave weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

Master and i spoke on numerous Master and slave topics and during O/our conversation, Master shared with me what my first piercing will be from Him: a wicked chained cunt piercing. This piercing is like nothing i have seen before and although it frightens me more than a good psycho-thriller, it arouses me to the very core of who i am.

i love the fact that i am owned. i adore the fact that Master is my owner and i am His property. This knowledge arouses me, comforts me and makes me smile. Although the piercing scares the heck out of me, the idea of being marked just for Him and in a manner only He can use me for, this is ideal. Perfect for O/our Master slave life.

During O/our conversation i exposed myself in a manner true to Master and i opened up a part of me that had been hidden for a long time. This slave's sexuality is alive and i am very proud to be Masters barking bitch in heat - sweet slave girl!

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