i would like to begin this entry with the acknow­ledg­ment that as of April 25, i have been record­ing mine and Master’s jour­ney for one whole year. An entire year has passed and in those 365 days i have explored and accep­ted who i am and the won­der­ful rela­tion­ship i have in ways i never deemed pos­sible. my very first entry, “His Love is my Freedom” was the begin­ning of a monu­mental step towards my slavery and i am forever grate­ful for Masters love and con­tinual lessons.

Today was one of those very spe­cial days of growth — a day where my les­sons truly came from within my slave soul –from a place i tend to keep hid­den. Many people would expect that after three years of being together, i would feel com­pletely con­fid­ent in shar­ing my desires; how­ever, there are still thoughts even i feel are too dark to share. Fortunately though, today was a day when i embraced con­fid­ence in both myself and the rela­tion­ship i share with Master and i opened up my dirty little mind and con­fessed three very big desires i have been deny­ing, (both to myself and to Master).

(i wish to inter­ject though for a moment and state that i had been deny­ing three desires but Master was very aware of them as Master is very in tune with His slave and what i am feeling.)

The first desire i shared with Master is that i crave to be a toy for Master and His mates. i have fan­tas­ized for a very long time about being a “gift” from Master to one of His friends and allow­ing His friend(s) to use me in any which way He wanted to. The idea of being the abso­lute best little fuck toy for another per­son; know­ing i must be the most amaz­ing and pleas­ing slave brings a form of pleas­ure i can not describe. Just know­ing i was mak­ing Master proud and that Master’s friends would see what Master receives every­day sends tingles up and down this slaves’ body.

The second desire i shared with Master is that i wish for Master to allow the “toy” to use me in the same way i will use her. i con­fessed to Master that this was a chal­len­ging desire to con­fess to because i have been fear­ful of my own desires for pain and i know i will inflict pain onto this “toy” and there­fore she will inflict pain onto me.

The third desire is a desire i am unwill­ing to con­fess as i am to ashamed to speak of it with every­one for i am not fully con­fid­ent with myself on this topic. This third desire though is one Master and i have been speak­ing about for a long long time and one that i con­tin­ued to deny, viol­ently so, until today. i could tell once i con­fessed my lust that Master was extremely happy and that made me beam with pride.

Today was a day of admit­tance. i con­fided with Master on numer­ous feel­ings and i exposed myself greater than i ever have before. my emo­tional naked­ness was lib­er­at­ing though and i feel as though a huge slave weight has been lif­ted from my shoulders.

Master and i spoke on numer­ous Master and slave top­ics and dur­ing O/our con­ver­sa­tion, Master shared with me what my first pier­cing will be from Him: a wicked chained cunt pier­cing. This pier­cing is like noth­ing i have seen before and although it fright­ens me more than a good psycho-thriller, it arouses me to the very core of who i am.

i love the fact that i am owned. i adore the fact that Master is my owner and i am His prop­erty. This know­ledge arouses me, com­forts me and makes me smile. Although the pier­cing scares the heck out of me, the idea of being marked just for Him and in a man­ner only He can use me for, this is ideal. Perfect for O/our Master slave life.

During O/our con­ver­sa­tion i exposed myself in a man­ner true to Master and i opened up a part of me that had been hid­den for a long time. This slave’s sexu­al­ity is alive and i am very proud to be Masters bark­ing bitch in heat — sweet slave girl!

Master would be so sur­prised and proud of His slave if He knew what i did today. i was a very naughty slave and stuffed Masters cunt with O/our spe­cial pink balls and the “thud.thud.zzd.zzd.zzd.” As i was filled and vibrat­ing i went to the park and enjoyed a long buzz­ing walk around the pond. With every step i came closer and closer to cum­ming until finally, i slipped behind a tree, rest­ing my back against the large stump and came — loud and hard — uncontrollably.

There i was, out in pub­lic, (although i am not cer­tain if any­one was around for i could not see any­one but someone could have been close by), and i was cli­max­ing. A year ago, nay a week ago i did not think i would have been able to do some­thing that dar­ing and yet, here i am in, being Master’s exhib­i­tion­ist slave.

After my out­rageous cli­max i res­ted on the cool green grass and enjoyed the earthy sur­round­ings. Interesting part of nature is how aroused i became from just being around all of that nature. Every scent i smelled, every breeze i felt upon my flesh and every little sound that reas­sured me that i was not alone all added to my intense arousal.

i spent four hours at the park, cum­ming over and over again and as i was leak­ing all down my leg i could not help but feel pride for releas­ing all my sexual energy without fear. i kept O/our toys deep inside me until i came home. Once home, i slipped O/our two favour­ite toys out of Master’s cunt and eagerly ripped open the present Master gave me.

Master is such a gen­er­ous man who spoils His slave and today was no excep­tion. i was blush­ing as i opened my present and found, with great delight, two head har­nesses Master wanted me to wear. They are both black and leather and although both have a ball gag, one has a leash lead ring. i can not wait for Master to use it on me.

Speaking of toys, today Master gave me the task of find­ing butt plug tails for me. Master wished for me to look on all other web­sites other than extremerestraints.com; how­ever, after much ser­ach­ing, if found the best pic­tures did come from that website.

With that said, i have included pic­tures of all the tail butt plugs i could find.